inverser une

...you asked me, have i ever lied to you? i did. i do not want to lie to you anymore by saying "No, i never lied to you". you asked why, i never had a reason to explain. i was wrong, i was blinded by rage, rage clouded my senses, senses made me act, and i acted foolishly. i never wanted to lie to you, i only do that because i cannot bear the thought of you avoiding me, ignoring me and leaving me. first thing that came into my mind, was to stop that from happening, which was the only thing on my mind. i know i gave you a traumatic experience, i will never deny it. all i can say is, i do it for love, and i love you...

neuf.

...i was sick and absent for 2 weeks. 1st day from my first absent and 3 days from my first condition, you messaged me, asking why am i missing from class. I got allergies from eating too much prawns. Not knowing that allergies aren't contagious and to prevent you from worrying too much, i told you that i'm fine, just got slight rashes in my skin. Despite that, you still came to see me immediately after class and tended me. Although i'm not lying dead on the bed like fever, but still you acted like i'm paralyzed, asking me what can you get to make me better. Little did you know that your presence alone is already my happiness...

huit.

...it was not the first time i went to the mall with you, but this time it's a bit different. You walked from shop to shop excitingly, most of them which are fashion boutiques. You picked up clothing after clothing after clothing, hard on deciding which to buy and which to give up. Trying every clothing on the ones you pick, and some you even asked me to take photos with you inside the dressing room with the the chosen clothes, and having awkward looks from people that saw me coming out from the dressing room with you. After some time, there was one particular shirt you came out with, it was the most beautiful thing i saw whole day, judging by how it suits you. Of course, you did not know what was my mind thinking that time, to you it's just another clothing to be tried on and left out. For me, i am glad that you took a photo with me while wearing that....

sept.

...you looked puzzled and troubled on the work you are trying to complete. It is midnight and yet you are in front of me, across the table, jerking your forehead with your palm. I felt bad finishing my work so quickly, that it made you looked stupid. So i secretly took out some other paperwork to act busy, not wanting you to leave knowing that i have finished my work and it is midnight so you would not disturb my sleeping time. It is sad that i cannot help you on your work as i am particularly weak for that subject. I took a short break, and went to the kitchen to fetch 2 glasses of water, one for me and one for her. I placed the glass in front of her, and gave her a relaxing massage. She enjoyed it somehow, judging by the way she is closing her eyes and swayed her head slowly. After that, she was back to her work with better concentration and mood. I stayed up whole night acting busy, just to enjoy the company with her...

six.

...I greeted goodbye to you. You skipped and hopped happily to your door front, turned around and waved back at me, knowing i was still there waiting for you to shut that door on me. Walking back home, i felt hungry and exhausted. Immediately, i took of my clothing and went to bathe, after finish bathing, i heard the doorbell, and opened it. It was the best thing i could lay my sight on. She brought a plastic container, inside the container was some rice and meat. It was an experiment she did on cooking. Surely, the taste was not all that good, even for a beginner in cooking, but it was not the taste or flavor that matters anyway...

cinq.

...there i was, sitting alone and staring at random objects. You sense a dark emotional presence in me, and came towards me, resting both your hands on my shoulders and giving me the "is everything alright?" look. I responded with a smile, it was the best thing i could have as a consolation to my problems. You sat with me afterwards, and I really do feel better with your presence, as my sad thoughts slowly change into memories i have had with you. Now i know why i want to have more memories with you...

quatre.

...We are strolling along the seaside, enjoying the sound of the gentle splashes from the waves. You held my hand wherever we went, as if once you let go i will be gone. Your big round eyes turned to me whenever i looked at your happy smile. Your smile is the only thing that made me look forward to everyday. After a long stroll along the beach, we found a spot below the shade of the coconut trees and looked over the horizon as the sun sets...

trois.

...We were strangers in the night, never knew each other, wondering and exchanging glances. What were the chances we will fall in love, and end out happily ever after? That's how i met you. You stood out among the crowd, i did not notice at first, but eventually time has proven that my love for you grew more and more. Sadly, if only you noticed, that is all i hope for...

deux.

...you sat beside me, holding my hand while i drive the car with the other. Knowing the risks of danger, yet i cannot let hold of your hand for even a moment, as i know the time we have together is short. I really hope that the destination we are heading is not your home, but somewhere far away with just the two of us...

un.

...and there you sat, with a face so sad that moves my heart whenever i either accidentally or intentionally put my sight on you. Unable to say anything because of the your thoughts unbeknownst to me...Acting from the heart, i humbly put my arms around you, hoping to give you the gentle warmth that you sought for as a remedy to your problems. You slowly closed your eyes, grabbed my hands, and lie on it, probably hoping and wanting me to understand your woes, and help you...